Friday, November 18, 2011

Adoption: Looking Out

I feel like Addie Beth in the picture, looking out with a huge smile, but remaining behind the closed doors, not sure of what's ahead.  We just started the first real piece to our adoption-our homestudy.  It will probably be around 3-4 months before we're finished with that step. If you're not familiar with the process, here's a brief description: it involves tons of paperwork, physicals, fingerprinting, background checks, 4-6 visits with a caseworker who will ask us tons of questions and will visit our home, and oh  Then, we will start having our profile (aka: small book that we make with pictures and words all about us!) shown to birthmothers.  From there, we just wait until we're matched.  After we finish our homestudy, it could be a matter of months or even just a few short weeks until we have our child(ren).

I'm sure everyone feels differently when they are going through this but here's how I feel:

I feel like I just found out that I'm pregnant.  You know that "super excited-can't believe it's happening-is this really for real?" feeling you get when you see a positive pregnancy test?  And then you quickly start imagining the feel of fresh newborn skin pressed against your cheek, the warmth of milky breath sighing deeply in sleep, white onesies and sweet footie pjs and soft blankies wrapped up tightly in your arms.  That's how I feel.

You can't see this pregnancy.  You won't look at me and see that there's a baby growing inside of me, but there is.  This baby is just growing in my heart and not my womb.

So I feel like Addie Beth looking out that door, excited and nervous all wrapped up in one.  After planning on adopting internationally for so long, this domestic route feels pretty new and unknown.  But we're confident that this is where God's led us and where He leads is always good.  Thank you, as always, for your prayers!

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9 Responses to “Adoption: Looking Out”

  1. So happy for you guys, Katie! I'll be praying for you!

  2. So exciting! Praying for the sweet addition (or more?!) to your family--the addition God has specifically picked for you, and you for them. Love your family!

    p.s. that picture of AB looks JUST like Owen to me!

  3. Congratulations, my paper-pregnant friend!

  4. Katie, I am so very excited for you and your family!! And I love your description of the process - that this baby is growing in your heart and not in your womb.

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  6. Katie,
    Hey long-lost suitemate. :) Sarah mentioned that you were adopting. I'm not sure if you knew or not, but Chris and I are adopting from Ethiopia. You can check out my blog for details. We'll be praying for your process.

  7. I am so thankful that you have three little ones to fill up your mother's heart and time so that your longing does not become overwhelming! What a blessing!