I would like to issue an apology to anyone that has stepped foot in our house over the past 7ish months. Though you have been very kind and never mentioned the frigid conditions, I am sure that you were wondering if you would leave with your fingers and toes intact. I do thank God that no one left our home with frostbite...at least not to my knowledge.
The good news is that last night I asked Josh a shocking question: "Babe, will you get me a blanket?" He stopped in his tracks and stared. "A blanket? A blanket! Do you mean to tell me that you are cold?" It was a sweet moment in the Fenska home. For once, I was not fanning myself or commenting about how hot I was. For once, I was not wishing that I lived in Antarctica. Ah...relief. One nasty symptom of this hyperthyroidism has been the inability to regulate my body heat. I have been unbearably hot for months. I've felt like I was in a sauna all day long. Now I only feel like that about 5 or 6 times a day and that is doable.
I can see little glimpses of healing and we're thanking God for that! I'm still hot often, eating like a ravenous beast, exhausted, and having stomach trouble, but all of those symptoms are not quite as severe as they were. I think I've stopped losing weight and my hair isn't falling out as much. And the beta blockers are keeping my heart from racing. Even though I wish that I felt 100% better, I'm grateful for the progress that I do see.
Thank you so much for your prayers, calls, texts, emails, meals, childcare, etc. You all have made it so much easier to focus on recovering. We are blessed with wonderful family and friends and we thank God for you! We're grateful that we aren't doing this alone.
If you're wondering how you can pray for me, please continue to pray for complete healing. Also, please pray that I would trust in God's grace for the many things I wish I could have changed over the months of feeling so sick. There are many things I wish I would have done differently. I'm so grateful that God does not treat us as our sins deserve because He afflicted Christ in our place.
So glad you're feeling better. I'd encourage you to remember that the Lord knew what was going on in your body even when you didn't, and he ordained for you to find out when you did. Try not to dwell in the "what ifs" over the months you were sick and didn't know it.
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