Addie's at 10pds

Thanks, everyone, for your comments, emails, and phone calls. I feel like I have some more ideas to try to with the little lady now thanks to your help. Thank you for caring!!!!We took Addie to the dr. today. She still has thrush and I'm curious if that could potentially be leading to her sleeplessness. I know that the Nystatin has sugar in it and I suppose it's possible that it could be hyping her up. I'm sure she's at least uncomfortable which could be leading to the fussiness. Anyway, I'm hoping that after this next round of antibiotics and probiotics we'll be done with the thrush. Also, she is now over 10 pounds! It's so good to know that she's growing. Last week Tali had a fever....

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Someone Please Read this and Help

If you have ANY thoughts or suggestions for how I can help my daughter sleep, please comment or email me. I'm desperate.Here's what she does...this is just one day for an example:8am: nursed8:40: swaddled, sang to her, lights off, fan on, put in bassinet8:40-10: occasionally cried for no more than 5 minutes at a time and then stopped, each time I checked on her she was laying in her bed looking around...never slept10am: Started screaming hysterically...I decided to just get her up since it had been over an hour. She was rooting around so I nursed her.10:40am: swaddled, sang to her, lights off, fan on, put in bassinet...she started crying immediately11:15am: had been crying off and on, eventually...

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Addie's First 3 Weeks in Photos

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Update on Life

I can't post pictures because the camera cord is no where to be found at the moment. Sorry.In case you're out there wondering how things are going around here, I would like to post this morning update:Addie was awake today from 7:30am until 11:15am. Some of that time she spent crying. Twice in that span, she ate. This is pretty typical for a day around here except that she generally screams much more than she did this morning. She doesn't sleep much regardless of my efforts. Letting her cry, trying the swing, holding her, singing, whatever for however long really doesn't matter. She is just hyperstimulated overtired and can't seem to get to sleep. It is frustrating because I have 2 other...

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Life with a Newborn

Our photographer friend, Brandon, took some awesome shots of Addie when she was 3 days old (the photo above is just one example). He did an incredible job and we are so grateful! You can check out the photos at: http://bjritterphoto.squarespace.com/clients/fenskas/(It might take a little while to load.)So our little girlie isn't quite 2 weeks old yet and still it seems that time is flying by. Maybe it's the fog of interrupted sleep or the lack of routine or the increased pace all day and night. I don't know. Time takes on a weird dimension when you're caring for a newborn.Some highlights:The other night I was taking care of Addie Beth and heard Tali exclaim from her bedroom, "God ansuhd...

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Grateful for Adelaide Elizabeth

Thank you, everyone, for your prayers! We are so grateful for friends and family who love us and our new little girl.Addie is doing well and it's hard to believe that she is actually here and the nine months of waiting are over. She is a beautiful and calm baby and snuggly sweet. Unlike our other two, she actually sleeps after she eats and so we're feeling a bit more rested than we probably were w/Tali or Owen. And still the exhaustion has set in like a heavy fog. Wow. It can be oppressive! I'm so grateful for my loving husband who is serving so whole-heartedly and for my parents who are helping in so many ways. Can't imagine attempting it alone.Addie looks a ton like Tali did at her...

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Introducing Our Little Girl

Meet Adelaide Elizabeth, a.k.a. Addie Beth, Addie Lulu, or just Addie. Who do you think she looks like?...

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Introducing Adelaide Elizabeth, aka Addie Beth, Addie lulu, or just Add...

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No name yet. Give us a little more time...

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8lbs 12oz. Baby girl and Mommy are doing well. Praising God for this amazing gift. Pictures on blog so...

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Babygirl was just born healthy. More info to co...

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Epidural's in. I'm a little over half way w/irregular contractions so they might start Pitocin. This has been an awesome labor so f...

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Labor is stalled, and a busy day at the hosp., but an evening delivery still looks likely for ...

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And We're in Labor!!!!!!!!!

Castor oil did the trick! We're at the hospital and labor's started...4cm. Still waiting for the nurse to start my IV and antibiotics for Group B Strep. After that happens, then my midwife will break my water. Can't wait to meet Baby Gi...

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Still waiting...

...but I'll let you know right here as soon as there is any ne...

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Due Date Schmoodate

And so here I am on the day of Baby #3's due date, waiting, waiting, waiting. Due dates are a tough thing, especially when you're a person who goes past them. Because then there's that nasty word-OVERDUE that comes into play and non-stress tests and inductions and pitocin and blah, blah, blah. But it's so good to know that God is never late in His plans and He never makes a mistake. His plan is always perfect and always good. So we're clinging to that truth and looking forward to seeing Him bring about His perfect plans for this baby's birth."This God-His way is perfect..." Psalm 18...

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No, I Haven't Had the Baby Yet

I am quite inspired by the happy rumor circulating that I've had the baby. Considering that both of our babies have been "late" so far, I find it especially encouraging that anyone would think it possible for me to go over a week early. Thank you, friends! I'm grateful for the moral support. We'll try and post an update as soon as we can when I actually have had the baby.Onto other news, here's a short clip of our current baby singing one of his favorite tunes and a little info from him about what all the ladybugs around here are up to. (Are we the only house that's been swarmed with those nasty asian beetle...

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Happy Birthday, Tali!

Today our sweet girl turned THREE! How the time has flown by...Here's a run-down of the day so that I can remember it for the future (and this probably won't be that facinating for most of ya so feel free to skip this post):Around 7:15am this morning we heard Tali in her room singing repeatedly, "I'm three years old today!" Josh and I got Owey up and went in her room all together singing, "Happy Birthday." We gave Tali a balloon and a gift to start her day (a new book). She was all smiles.Her birthday breakfast consisted of a smoothie made from Daddy and an english muffin w/peanut butter.Then, our friend Karen came over and opened gifts with us. (Karen serves our family by coming over once...

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Praise God for a New Lens

I love how God works all things together for good even when we don't see it at the time. Our camera lens broke recently-not cool at all. I kept telling Josh, "I CANNOT go into labor until our camera is fixed!" :) We've been wanting a better lens for low-light settings anyway and this seemed like the perfect time to look into it. Thank you, Lord, for providing us with this awesome new lens! (Bring on the labor & delivery!) I can't wait to take pictures of our new girlie with it. These are some samples of pics taken with our new le...

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Being a Mom Means Sacrifice

God has been so kind to show me lately that I haven't really surrendered with joy to this call that's He's placed on my life as a mom. I want to stay at home with my kids, instruct and train them for His glory, love them and enjoy them, but without the "hard stuff." I want it to be easy and all fun and not such a death to my own perceived "rights." When it's hard, I look for some way to make it easier. I can fight within my heart saying, "This is NOT how it's supposed to be! Being a mom is not supposed to require so much sacrifice from me. Shouldn't it be less tiring than this?" In other words, I haven't quite surrendered to God's plan of conforming me more to the image of Christ who came...

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Is There Really A Point to This Hard Stuff?

If you know me much, you already know that I really bow down to that favorite idol of mine, "love of ease." Of all the idols to have, this one is just flat out stupid given that I have two little children who need quite a bit of attention. The "easy life" isn't one that parents who are actively seeking to care for their kids are going to have. Still, I want it and my battle each day is to submit to God's plan to conform me more into the image of His Son through little deaths to self. I read the following in Milton Vincent's "A Gospel Primer for Christians" today and felt like God was personally speaking to me. Maybe it will be an encouragement to you as well:"God is committed to my dying every...

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Fall Fun

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34 Weeks

Today I am officially 34 weeks along...and even though that is a lot farther than back when I was 5 weeks or 12 weeks or 20 weeks, it still seems like it's going to be forever before little girlie is born.Here's what I know about 34 weeks:1) It is a gift to have made it this far with a healthy, living, active little baby inside.2) It is still fun to feel her move, especially when Tali puts her hand on my (large) belly and feels the kick too.3) Enjoying my two two-and-unders isn't easy when getting up and down takes so much effort.4) Each moment with the "big kids" is more precious because I know that soon my time will be divided between 3.5) Sleeping is sort of a thing of the past for a while...at...

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Early Morning Thoughts From Owey

This morning I heard Owen calling from his room, "I wanna seep on Mommy's pih-low. I wanna seep on Mommy's pih-low." Knowing that we'll have a newborn soon makes me want to savor the moments with my little "almost 2 year old" baby all the more. So I brought him in.He quietly sucked his thumb for a while, then glanced over to Josh sleeping beside him and whispered, "Can I look at him?""Sure, buddy, you can look at him," I laughed.Owen began softly touching Josh's beard and quietly whispered, "Oh! Daddy ih bue-duh-ful. Daddy so bue-duh-ful!"I couldn't agree mo...

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Wiping Their Faces and Helping them Share

Lately I have been quick to complain, quick to become irritated at my kids, and quick to crave rest instead of joyfully caring for Tali & Owen. Wiping their faces and helping them share, coaching them to put away toys, making meals, training them, instructing them, disciplining them...it hasn't seemed very appealing to me lately. My body is physically tired, my brain feels a bit fried, and I don't necessarily feel like "engaging" with my kids all day. I'm not sure what I'd rather be doing (except maybe sleeping!) but I'm certainly not bursting with joy about my day. I don't want this to be the case and I know that God doesn't either.During my devotional time I was asking the Lord to help...

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Encouragement for Parenting

A couple quotes from Tedd Tripp's "Shepherding a Child's Heart" were particularly helpful for me today regarding the importance of devoting myself to parenting:"The cost is great. It requires being available and fully engaged in parenting.You must regard parenting as one of your most important tasks while you have children at home. This is your calling. You must raise your children in the fear and admonition of the Lord. You cannot do so without investing yourself in a life of sensitive communication in which you help them understand life and God's world. There is nothing more important. You have only a brief season of life to invest yourself in this task. You have only one opportunity...

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My Favorite 2 Year Old

Tali is one of the most enjoyable people to be around that I've ever met. She really is just so cheerful, funny, sweet, kind, thoughtful, etc. (Don't get me wrong, she has her moments like we all do, but I'm talking the overall picture here!) Here's just a small snap-shot into what it's like to live with her...This morning the kids were playing with the Strawberry Shortcakes in Tali's room. I was sitting in the chair relaxing a bit and just enjoying their conversation with each other. Here's a bit of it:Owen: Can I pay Stah-bayree Soe-cakes?Tali: Oh shuh, Owen. Owen, can I play too?Owen: No.Mommy: Yes, Owen, you need to share with Tali.Tali: Owen, can I please have some of the Strawberry...

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Door County Memories, pt. 1

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And We're Up!

As of this weekend, we are back upstairs again. We're freshly grateful for the blessing of our home and thanking God for our friends, the Maxims, all that God has taught us through this season. I remember back in April when our friends moved in, having a conversation with my grandma who seemed a bit puzzled at what we were doing. "Hmm...that's interesting," she said. So why did we do it? Let me assure you that it's not because we're super-human or the most Godly and hospitable people on the planet (we're not). It was challenging in some ways to share our home (mostly because of my sinful heart) but I'm grateful for what God's taught me through it. Why did we do this?1. We want to live...

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Some Owey Quotes

Our little sweet boy is full of words these days. He's just recently started speaking in sentences more than just small phrases. Here are a couple of my faves:Oh Mommy! So cite-een! So cite-een! See gah-bidg man!Whenever we ask him if he wants a snack or some food, he'll say with great excitement in his voice, "Oh yahs!"Josh taught him what jazz music is and now Owen wants to listen to "Jas music." The first time Josh played a Duke Ellington cd for him, he listened for a bit and then shouted, "I LOVE it!" A couple minutes after Josh had turned it off, Owey sadly asked, "Pee-ah-no go? Dums?"This one kind of shocks me but he's also started coming up to me at appropriate times and saying,...

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Happy Birthday, Grammy!

Make a Smilebox greet...

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We're Still Here

I can't believe the last time I posted was in May. Then again, this has been a busy summer and my computer isn't in a location that's easily accessible (think very near Owen's crib).Just wanted to let everyone know that we're still here and still grateful to God for each other and all of you wonderful friends and family!Tali and Owen are growing like weeds and getting more funny each day. They play together a lot now, and are going through the hard lesson of learning to share. Often I hear, "Mommy! He's trying to take that from me!" And then a loud shriek from Owen, "Have it! Have it! Have it!" Despite the little sharing squabbles, they love each other a lot and are best buds.We found out that...

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Book Time

Tali is growing and changing so much. Her little mind is constantly going and she continues to crack us up with her humor and cheerfulness.Yesterday I took the kids to the library and when we got home Tali had "Book Time." (While Owen takes his morning nap, Tali looks at books in her crib.) I came downstairs and saw that one of her books had been tossed out of the crib so I asked her about it."They wuh haveen bad add-ih-tudes, Mommy. I didn't like it! A man was angry and evweeone kept taking away the guls toys! It was not good and I did not like that book."Immediately I knew which book she was talking about and started cracking up. "Rummage Sale" is the title. It's a book about various...

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12 Weeks and Thanking God

As of Saturday, I am now 12 weeks along.  And guess what? When the 12 week mark hit, the awful nausea left.  Praise the Lord!  I feel like a new person and so grateful to be able to eat without dread again.  I am so grateful to be feeling better and grateful for all of your prayers along the way.Life has been very full lately (and really, when isn't it?). We've had the Maxims with us for about a month now and are still transitioning a bit into how to do life with 10 people in the house.  It's been a joy to see all of our kids enjoying one another, a blessing to have another lady around to talk with during the day, and a nice break to share meal prep & housework....

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Owen at 16 Months

Tomorrow I turn 28 (I know, I'm a youngster!). On Friday, Owey will turn 16 (months old). Where did the time go? My baby is getting to be such a toddler and I can hardly believe it. So that I don't forget, here's a bit about what's going on with Owen right now.New Words/Phrases or just my favorite things that he says: Have it, Daddy ah you (Daddy, where are you?), Mummy (Mommy), too (whenever he wants to do something too), shur (share), rob-bee (robin), skul (squirrel), Pay (pray), may-men (amen), owie hut (owie hurt), beece (please), wuhvul (shovel).Favorite Foods: lunch meat, green beans, crackers, popciclesFavorite Book: "I Love Trucks" by Philemon Sturges (His constant refrain around...

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Fenska News

Hi All.Wanted to update you on some news around here. I had hopes of posting a cute video of Tali telling everyone but I'm too busy right now to be creative like that.1)  Lord willing, we will be having baby #3 this November! We are grateful to God for this undeserved gift.  We'd love your prayers for a healthy baby and for grace as I've been feeling pretty sick this pregnancy.  I'll have an ultrasound in a couple weeks so I'll relay our actual due date and info like that when we find that out.2)  Next Monday we will go from being a home of 4 to a home of 10!  Our dear friends, the Maxims, will be moving in with us until they find a home in our area.  Josh and I...

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It's Rough Being a Little Brother

Owey's face pretty much says it all. His sister is constantly trying to brush his hair, give him hugs, have him eat her pretend meals, hold his hand, put clothes on him, have conversations with him, etc. This poor little guy is such a good sport, even when he doesn't always enjoy her attention.Despite all that, Owen and Tali really are good buddies. I absolutely love it when they make each other laugh or when they play ring-around-the-rosy, or when they dance together. Tali's been trying to talk to Owen a lot lately, too. "Hi Owey! How's ya day ta-day, Owey? What chew do ta-day, Owey?" It's so sweet when she does this but I feel bad for her because she doesn't get why he's not responding...

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Thanking God for Cindy

This week a dear friend who we had the joy of being with at the Pastor's College went to be face to face with Jesus, her Savior. She had been battling cancer heroically, trusting in the Lord and joyfully putting all her faith and hope in Him despite much pain. Though most of you have probably never met Cindy, I wanted to give you the opportunity to benefit from her life like I have. God was glorified in her life and He is being glorified through her death. (And if you don't have time to read this long post, just skim to the end and read Cindy's own words. You'll be challenged and encouraged by the way the Gospel had affected her!)There is much I can say about Cindy, but what I am most thanking...

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It Always Happens When Daddy Is Gone

Now seriously-when else would a little boy who always falls directly asleep wind up taking an hour of calming to finally hit the hay? When else would a little girl who has been doing an awesome job going to sleep happily suddenly scream and scream and scream for water? (Of course at the same time that her brother is screaming for his mama.) Only, and I repeat-ONLY when Daddy is gone and I am doing the bedtime thing by myself. It never fails. This sort of thing literally happens every single time that Josh has a meeting or something and can't help with putting them to bed. Am I the only one that has this issue? Do the children conspire together behind my back before I start attempting to put...

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A Couple CA Photos

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Recent Quotes

I've been storing up quotes from Tali and finally have a couple seconds to post them. These might only be funny to me, but I want to put them up so I'll have a way of remembering her two year old conversations. And yes, I am that dorky mom that quickly grabs a pin and jots down my child's sentences before I forget them.Setting: Tali was running around the house, acting like a crazy woman. For no reason at all.Dust uh-skooze me. I'm willy uh-sited!-----------------Setting: I had just gotten some Play-Doh out for Tali. Owen was crying a bit because he wanted picked up or something like that.You wanna pay wit Pay-doh, Owey? It's willy fun. You dohn hafta kye for it, Owey. It's fun!---------------------------Setting:...

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Little Chef

Owey's really into pretending that he's cooking. He and Tali spend much of the day standing at her play kitchen, stirring and loudly banging pots and pans. Today I noticed that Owen was vigorously stirring in this little bowl, occasionally saying, "Yum-Yum!"Me: Owey, that looks good. What are you cooking?O: Eggs.Me: Eggs? I didn't even know that you could say eggs!O: (With a big grin, holding the spoon out to me) Bye? (bite)Seriously. I have a chef on my han...

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Winter Continues

Ever had those moments where it seems like your family is never going to all feel healthy again at the same time? Today is one of those days around here. I'm still not 100% since California. Owey is still coughing and cranky. Tali just started coughing yesterday and now has a fever. Josh has been congested for days. Winter in Illinois...I am just longing for those warm spring days when we can play outside, go for long walks, run at the park, and enjoy fewer colds. Are you with me? All this and we're expecting a big snow storm tonight.It's just another reminder to me that my joy can't be found in my circumstances, it's got to be found in Christ. These illnesses may linger for weeks and we...

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Marriage Retreat

Over the weekend, Josh and I were able to attend the "When Sinners Say I Do" marriage conference in Minnesota. The time was so rich with biblical truth, passionate worship, long car rides that provided ample time for conversation, and just the blessing of being with my hubby. I'm so glad that we were able to go.There's much that I could share but one thing that really stands out to me as I consider the messages that we heard: sin and weakness in marriage are an opportunity for ministry. They are an opportunity to reflect the Gospel, especially the mercy of God that is seen best at the cross. Dave Harvey talked a lot about the fact that we, as sinners, are not receiving the wrath of God that...

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Feeling Sick and Heading Home

The Lord definitely answered all of your prayers on our trip out here.  Would you be so kind as to pray again? 1)  For healing for me as well as strength for the flight-I've not been feeling well today and spent most of the day asleep.  I need all of the energy I can get to creatively care for 2 tired kids on a 4 hour flight. 2)  Grace for the kids; they are tired and cranky.  They desperately need the Lord's help to make it through the flight without fits of crying. 3)  Wisdom for Josh: he's doing more of the work since I'm feeling so yucky. 4)  A quick transition back to our own time zone. Thank you so much!  Grateful that the Lord is more eager to...

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Grateful for the Prayers!

Let me be honest; I cannot even imagine our flight experience being any better than it was.  I'm not kidding!  The Lord blew us away with His kindness in making the travel go so smoothly. Thank you for your prayers!  We were so aware that God was personally caring for us. A couple highlights:1)  When we got to the airport, we found a parking spot right by the bus shuttle.  Thank you, Lord!  To make things even better, the bus pulled up before we even got out of our car and the driver said that he'd wait for us. We didn't have to wait in the cold at all.2) The bus ride to the airport was hilarious.  Tali was sitting next to me a bit scared. Owen was on my lap...

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Prayer Requests

We're on our way out the door, heading for the airport to fly to CA for a week!  We'll be enjoying time with Josh's family and enjoying the beautiful weather that is a far cry from this frozen tundra that we live in. (Don't be too jealous!)If you think of us, please do pray:1) For our flight: pray for God's grace to be upon the kids, especially Owey. He is so not into sitting still and this could be a challenge for him.2)  For good health: both kids are fighting a bit of a cold3)  For joyful memories with one another and with Josh's family4) That I would seek to live for Christ and not myself, seeking to serve others and not just craving MY way! (especially regarding less rest...

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Favorite Quotes of the Day

While we were in the car waiting for Josh:"O-wen! Ware is ya fah-duh at?"And tonight at dinner:"Mommy, I willy enjoy dis dinner dat you made me."And one for Owey, too. He is currently obsessed with his beloved bear that he sleeps with. It's very concerning to him when he can't locate it. This morning I heard him calling out, very loudly:"Beer? Beer? Go? G...

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Me Time

I came across a blog a while back talking about the "Me-time myth." It came to my mind again today and I wanted to share it.Often my day swirls on and I've barely sat down until 2:30 when both kids are finally in their beds for naps. Nap time can be prime time for my selfishness to reign. Here's how it works: I start thinking, "I've worked hard all day long. At least I deserve a little break-some time to sit and relax for a while. I will feel so much more refreshed if I can just have some peace and quiet/time to myself." Sure, there are countless other tasks that I could be doing, but a nice cup of tea and some chocolate while I read the latest Everyday Food Magazine sure sounds like a...

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That Dreadful Iron

It's been a long time since I ironed any clothes. My poor husband has been sticking his shirts on hangers and hanging them in the bathroom while he showers in an attempt to get the wrinkles out (it only sort of works). Well, today I finally decided to put his interests above my own and break out the good ole' iron.Owey was sitting in his pack-n-play watching while I put the ironing board up and plugged in the iron. Immediately, he started shaking and crying. The poor child was afraid of the ironing board. Does that not tell you something? Um, the sweet boy had never even seen the thing before. I think that he thought it was some kind of vicious creature or something.Yep. I need not grow proud...

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Favorites of the Day

Just another ordinary day over here. I don't want to forget the little things though. Too much sweetness to take it for granted.Today I said, "Tali, I'm going to go vacuum. Do you want to come with me to the living room?"Her response: "Oh shuh, Mommy. I'd love to!" (this is a very typical answer that she gives)After "resting" in her room for a couple hours and never falling asleep, I went up to get her. When I walked in she said, "Oh Mommy! I'm phew-wee! Tan you change me?"And then there's Owen. He thinks everything that Tali does is just hilarious. Their new thing is to make a spitting sound together and then crack up. It is funny except when they are doing it at the dinner table and food...

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Speaking his Mind

Owey with his Papa ("Bapa" as he affectionately shouts!)Owey has just been overflowing with cuteness lately and I don't want to forget some of the particulars. Here's a couple of my faves:* We went to a friend's house the other morning and Owen was in their highchair eating. Tali ran into the room and then quickly ran out again. Owen looked at me with wrinkled brow, lifted up his hands and said, "Goh? Goh? Ssssss?" (Sssss=Sissy)* Today before his nap, he walked over to the pantry and started banging on it. Then looked at me and said, "Nah! Nah!" I was a little taken aback so I said, "O, do you want a snack?" He got a huge grin and said, "Beee." (please). * Despite his earlier "incident"...

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These Children Are His

I have struggled for many years to trust in the Lord rather than giving way to the sin of fear and anxiety. Now that I have children, the temptations can be great. There are many fears and anxieties, too many to list. At the top is the fear that their life will somehow cease. God has helped me to fight this fear, and many others, by meditating on His Word and the truth that He is always good and always sovereign. Still, the temptations are there and I need daily reminders. So, it might seem odd that I am finding such help from this blog, where this "worst fear" actually has happened in the Castro family. I don't think I've ever met them, though we attended their church when we lived in...

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My Two Year Old

I neglected to post back in November when my big girl turned two. I thought it only appropriate to do it a bit late, given that I finally got around to posting about Owen's one year mark!Talitha Lauren Fenska. I have never in my life met anyone like Tali. I sincerely think that there is no one like her in all the world. This girl is simply one of a kind! From her continual chatter to her requests to pray for people to her sense of humor to her inconsistent sleep patterns to her huge vocab, this girl is just a delight. (Ok, so the inconsistent sleep patterns aren't exactly fun.)Some stats on my girl:Weight: can't remember...I think it's 31 but maybe I'm off here.Clothes: 3TFavorite Foods: Blueberries,...

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Pride...yuck

I want to confess to y'all that in writing about Owen's reflux, my heart was not right. I was proudly thinking, "No one else knows about reflux and how nasty it really is!" In my comments, I wasn't being compassionate about the challenges of having a "happy spitter" or any other spit-up. Instead, I was just thinking that I know best on this subject. Would you forgive me for my pride? I know that's a sin that Christ had to die for and I don't want to continue in it. I am genuinely sorry. And if I tempted you or hurt you by that in any way, I am very sorry for that as well! So glad that even for this, Jesus died, and stands to declare me righteous before God because I'm clothed in His righteousness,...

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